Life changes a lot and sometimes you can't notice it.
This year has been insane.
Last year was depressive, fucking low paying work, I hate that sort of janitor stuff.
But that year I did an exam to study nursery in the place where I work, only 30 scholarships were given to workers.
Fortunately I was in the top 10 and as of april 1st I'm studying nursery.
People that know me will tell you guys that I've loved nature from my childhood, actually I was going to study medicine at military school but I couldn't get in.
I droped out engineering because I found it too boring.
And I just did the exam because I wanted to get out of that job and I thought it was going to be easy.
But no, now I'm kinda regreting it because its so fucking hard, so hard that makes me wonder about the effort I'm doing, I'm thinking that medicine school was a better option.
I'm studying in a special system that we learn in a year what its supposed to be learned in 4 years so, you can imagine the ammount of work I have right now.
But hey my work now is to study , I can't complain that bad because they are paying me to study.
My bosses and teachers most of them have +20 years of experience and they are not what you would expect from the government healthcare system, they are profesionals and I'm surprised about that.
I love my superiors, most of them are women and they are enchanting when they have to and bitches when they have to.
So far in 2 months I've learned all the bones, about 300 muscles (they are about 600), all the tissues and their basic work, I'm handling a vocabulary of 570 words (yes I just counted them), caring of the patient, vital signs (cientific explanation and all that shit) and we are starting to see vaccination and sterilization.
That just from 3 subjects, I'm having 9 at the moment.
Fuck, I've corrected medics in their anatomy explanations and in their medical vocabulary, you know what does it feel? IT FEELS REALLY GOOD.
And I'm just a fucking nurse student. But I'm proud of it.
I've changed my way to hate people , I don't hate anymore, I've just learned that we all have needs (that is from the 4th most intense subject, understanding behaviour and how to change it) so in a way I'm manipulating them.
I'm loving people even if they send me straight to hell.
I feel good inside.
In the artistic side, it has given me a lot of new and rawer visions, you will see when I have the time for it.
What really surprised me is that you get an ability to see death. I can say , right know, that I've seen death into its eyes. And I don't know how I feel about that.
Some of you guys know that we mexicans see death in a different way, but this is completely different. You can even say hi to it, you will turn your back and then the patient is in flatline.
I will try to explain it in my works but its overwhelming.
So my fiancee (*
blacklady666) and I did a portrait the first day I wore my white clothes, feels good, you know?

Yeah I'm a nurzombie, BEWARE!
What else... I'm living in my own apartment now!!!

And its a fucking mess, lol.
Love you all I hope to be around more often.
PS. Don't you love DIE FORM? My GOD!.